A Good Place to Start

I think that would be here ~~~~> X

I've been contemplating moving my blog away from Myspace for awhile now. I always felt restricted about what I could write about there. I felt a pressure to only write about the happy things, the things that I knew would make my friends laugh and feel happy. Anytime I posted about how I really felt about something, I felt like I was isolating my friends or maybe myself because I knew that it would make them uncomfortable to realize that not everything was happy go lucky like I led them to believe. I wanted to be a "Happy Good Time" friend. But as I've gotten older, I've realized I've surrounded myself with Happy Good Time friends, but I don't have a single "Serious" friend. Every time one of those surveys come around that ask who your best friend is I always leave it blank or make some witty comment about all of my friends being the bestest. It finally dawned on me~ I don't have a best friend, besides my husband. The only person I could pour myself out to was the blank pages of the one special journal I keep hidden from everyone. It contains all of my doubts, fears, and just plain craziness that I deemed weren't right for Myspace. Sadly, I'm the only one who ever reads those entries and its hard to get feedback from one's own crazy self. I can look at entries from years past and laugh at myself or think "this is what you should do T" but it takes time to get perspective and sometimes time is not an option when you need support and encouragement right then. So this is my effort. Maybe I'll get a few readers, maybe I wont get a single one. But at least my craziness will be out there without me feeling guilty.